inspired by this, i want to make my own mixtape that represent my heart, my current condition, i was moved to another branch so thats mean i dont have same office with R (just call him like that), yeah there are high communication technology like smartphone and email but thats not enough, in the end i caugh it as a sign from God, i have to go and move on from his live. the sign i should stop unciously being third party-maybe he wasnt for me,he has someone else and i deserve someone better. ,From the start R wasnt mine,we are just friends with (too many) benefits. he has girllfriend in his hometown, a more ordinary girlfriend if you compared with me- yeah i am also ordinary one maybe but she is more ordinary- and i said this not because i had crush to her boyfriend- even i didnt i would say same thing- and also everybody said so. For shorthened if i want and i try i may will conquer him and make him break up with his gf, so many people support me to do so but hi his ordinary girlfriend did nothing to me, so why should i ruined their relationship?!. i mean even i dont know her but i think judging from her appearance and his story, she is such nice&fragile girl, a girl who will break down if he is gone (which different with me-who will stay strong even without him) not kind of bitch who make u want to make her stay away from ur man, so before me - they are such ordinary but perfect couple , their relationship was strong enough-so all i have to do is stay away from their relationship, i dont want to break it, i feel sorry to her and all i want that their relationship back like it used to before there was me. so yeah i stop replied all his message , i keep distance from him, and i make this mixtape to be my soundtrack, not in order to remind me of him but to make me sure, i made best desicion . for you who feel the same, i wish my mixtape will help to heal your heart too so here we go :
1. Hapus Aku- Nidji
Time to forget and let go
God , make me realize- that he isnt minelet time erase me , erase me
(translated by me)
2. Iiwake Maybe - AKB48
1thing to say dont be trapped with happy beat, this song is actually pretty sad story about unrequited love from a girl toward her bestfriend with benefit.I thought
We were just friends
But right now,
You,
I really miss you
Maybe
Maybe
Maybe I like you
In the sky
There isn't a single cloud
Maybe
Maybe
Maybe I like you
It's how love is,
That much I know
But maybe that's an excuse
3. Only one - BoA ( listen the piano intro its so simply amazing so do lovely osng and powerfull dance)
When will my head erase you? (I will let you go)
One day, two days, one month, if long term then a few years (My baby can’t forget)
And someday in your memories,
I won’t live in it, you will erase me
One day, two days, one month, if long term then a few years (My baby can’t forget)
And someday in your memories,
I won’t live in it, you will erase me
You’re only getting farther – you’re the only one
As much as I loved you, you’re the only one
It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye
Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
Only one
As much as I loved you, you’re the only one
It hurts and hurts and it’s foolish but good bye
Though I may never see you again, you’re the only one
Only one
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded
That for me it isn't over.
Never mind, I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you too
Don't forget me, I beg
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead,
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, "
Yeah
In the end i still fell lucky i meet R, he is diffrent from other boys, he never make me sick, but i know i should do this for my own good also his and her in the end i am pretty sure i will find someone like him or even better if God allowed, so Goodbye R-thanks for everything
-Hold on and pain ends-
dee chan
