i just wanna "Hijrah"

Hijrah year already pass but i am still here, in this devil circle called my office which is ironically one of biggest bank in indonesia.i feel like burdened with my job and some people and also being burden in here, i feel like unusefull and it somehow destroy my self esteem slowly,. some of my friends already fly away,do job that they trully love and get bigger salary meanwhiile i stuck in a war, get my salary cut everytime i dont achieve target and some people who envy with me a lot because i have bigger salary than them excuse me 3,5 million isnt that big lah, why do you guys feel so envy even everytime i ask prize of something there always said : why you dont buy it,you have higher salary, 3,5 million buy it lah., SIGH I CANT EVEN

I am tired God, i am sorry i cant help to compare, i rant again, i am sorry , i still kind of persaon who always less gratefull,i am sorry, i will do intropection and revive my spirit, ALLAH pls help me, give me a better job who free from riba (another reason why do i want to stop work in bank because its place of riba)

Gods pls help,make me stronger, instead of work, there are also problems in love,family and others as well,i am sorry i know you want make me become better person so pls show me the way and accompany me